es mi vida (:

As much as we argued and as much as you got me mad as fuck I could still honestly say that I miss you. I miss how I could truley be myself around you which I loved the most. And the dumb things that we could up. But then I fucked it up and did what I did. And yet you were still there. I guess this is what I get right? But then you went behind the persons back and did what you did thinking that something was going to happen again. But I pushed you away, I didn’t think I was going to push you too far that we weren’t going to be friends anymore… This is what I get and I understand it completly wish I could tell you all things then that I want to tell you now, but I know you wouldn’t listen and that would just make you confused and I wouldn’t want to do that to you when I know how happy you are. But why does our frienship have to end? Everything was fine when I went to your house those couple of times and I hit you up sometimes and everything seemed fine. Was there something that I didn’t see? Was there something that you weren’t telling that I did? Either way you were never the person to keep things in. You wanted the whole world to know how you were feeling and you never held in anything that you were feeling towrds me. So why all of a sudden you want to keep what you were thinking and feeling inside at the time? And now I just looking at our pictures wishing that things could go back to the way they were. Or maybet things don’t have to go back to the way they were and they could be even better.

Either way I wish I could send this text message to finally tell you how I feel..

ayeeitsmikeyy:

I’ll be there for you. Until you find someone better, find someone who can give you more, I’ll be there. I’ll always be there. Whether it’s late at night or early in the morning, you’ll always have me. I know that I’m not the greatest, I’m not the most talented, or have the most things, but I’ll be there, until you find someone who can do more for you. That’s who I am, the friend that’s always there until something better comes along. 

(via just-a-nice-guy)

After all this time I can’t believe that she’s going to come back. My ride or die , my smoke to my high , the peanut butter to my jelly , the two peas in a pod etc is coming back ?!?! Trip out moment probably going to go back to the way they were. I missed her like crazy. Yeah we have our arguments disagreements , our everything that’s bad moneys but we end up looking passed thy because life is too short to hold a grudge , hate , being angry and something so stupid. Yes I apologized for being mad at her hopefully it could go back to the way they were because she was the only one that gets me and understands me without judging me. We could act stupid together and not care what people think , she doesn’t get tired with my complaining or problems even though I keep telling her over & over again. Seemed like we were suppossed to be sister but God knew that she couldn’t handle us both ahaha so he made her my cousin even though we’re not blood related (: I thank Him for putting her in my life.

I could feel myself slowly wanting to break down. Not okay this isn’t fair

The fuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuck :(

Don’t know what to do anymore. Wished it didn’t have to be like this. :(